Worst Way To Die?

Ok, so me and my friend were talking about ways to die. we arent suicidal or anything, just insane bored. lol. Anyway we decided that the worst way we could think of to die was this... A person that is paralyzed from the neck down falls out of their wheelchair face first into a puddle of water, and they drown because they have no way to get themselves out of the puddle. I think its like the saddest thing ever. :( Any thoughts?

Newly Found Hatred

Thanks to band camp my flute and I are now enemies. In the past week it has caused me so much physical and mental pain that I want to back my car over it. I am attempting to keep a positive attitude but it is getting increasingly harder by the second. Oh and in addition to me not knowing what the hell i'm doing guess where my place is on the feild??? Thats right, front and center. How great is that? Just my luck.

Mother's Racial Comment Of The Day

Ok so today I went to the mall with my mom. As we were leaving the parking lot there was a young man behind us... bass turned up all the way, backwards hat, peirced ears, the whole nine yards. My mother is a racist if I hadnt already mentioned that. She turns to me and says "Veda you see that guy behind us? That there is a wannabe nigger" She knew how profoundly pissed off I would get but procceded to say it anyway. I simply cannot tollerate her constant racist comments, jokes, etc. She is in no position to judge the decisions or lifestyles of others. Any thoughts???

Am I By Myself Or Insane?

Lately I have felt like I'm alone. Its not that I haven't been around people because that's kind of inevitable for me. I'm not sure where this feeling is coming from, its like an uneasy or unsettled feeling in the back of my mind all the time. This is not depression, I've been there, this is quite different. I am doing my best to act normal and to not let anybody know of this unnecessary, unexplainable feeling that is constantly haunting me. Any thoughts or suggestions would be extremely helpful.

The Hell Known As Band Camp

Ok... Sorry guys, I've been really busy lately. Mostly because this week and next week is band camp. Yay. Oh, I don't think y'all know this yet but I play flute... which is why I'm in band camp. haha. First of all it should be called boot camp. Its from 8 in the morning to 4:30 in the afternoon. The music is fucking hard! I'm trying my best but so far that hasn't been enough, My flute has broken for the past 4 months so I'm a little rusty. lol. The marching isn't that hard but its really really hot outside. Despite all of these negatives I am still looking at the few positives and pressing onward. I am determined to be the absolute best that I can be at this whole marching band thing. I'm going to have to practice my ass off though. :( This is going to be difficult but I am going to finish strong. I think I can survive 2 weeks of heat and pain, maybe.